You came through like a whirlwind
Feigning friendship, love, honesty and camaraderie
You blew through like a hurricane
Leaving the debris of pettiness, lies and contention in your wake 
Crazy thing is, I saw you coming

I saw you coming
With your truck load of baggage 
Ready and willing to pile it all on top of me
Weigh me down like bricks 
Sink me into the bottom of the sea

I saw you coming 
Bamboozled by the feeling of your genuineness
Blinded by your affinity for my wealth of knowledge
The love I freely give
My generosity, my affection 

I saw you coming 
Your yin and yang persona
The emotional rollercoaster of you
Leaving me drained and dry
Like a stream in the desert

Now it's time to unlatch your talons
Remove the weights you've placed on my ankles
You could never hold me down
I'm destined to rise above and win
My success you could never determine

I saw you coming 
And now, I see you leaving 
Farewell.

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

My heart skips a beat as your number appears on my screen
I'm in utter shock 
Disbelief 
Yet happy all the same
Finally, I can hear your voice instead of typing keys on a screen 
Pressing the green button,  I whisper a sensual hello
Your baritone sends chills down my spine
Lights a fire within me with just a simple hello 
We talk, our chemistry floating throught infinity
Reaching across distance and time 
I cherish each second I can hear your heart's melody.
Finally, hours later,  my breath and pulse return to their norm
I feel satiated, if but for the moment

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

The silence, I can feel it

Stalking me

Its breath warm at the nape of my neck

Touch sweet like a flower’s nectar

Gentle like a summer breeze

The peace I seek within, eludes me

Retracts every time I reach out my with

The depths of my mind, the sulci of my brain

In awe, to touch its beauty and

Revel in the majesty of its tranquility

Silence laughs at my expense

I use my hands to muffle the sobs

Of pain from my heart

The screams, the torment

That possesses my brain

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

The tears they flow like rain

Past nose and cheeks to rest on my chin

Before hitting my chest with a thud

The voices drag my sanity into the their hell

“You’re not worthy.” says one

“Not good enough.” says the other

You should just give it up.” retorts the third.

I cover my ears to drown them out

Plaster my face with a smile

Shed tears alone to hide the pain

Silence eludes me once again

I give in to the voices

For now

Just for now

For, tomorrow

Is another day

Where one who is so adored by many

Shall one day face her demons again

Feelings she holds within

Rejection, Unworthiness, Unwanted

Unloved, Unprotected, Misunderstood

Triumph is just around the corner

She just has to find a way

To capture the silence within


🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

I see myself through your eyes
A vivid picture comes to mind
Someone you love so much
And hate so passionately.
Two trees grown with love
Your weeds of secret truths
Swarm at my trunk, to swallow me
Connecting us still, this time
With stubbornness, hidden feelings
Lack of compassion, possessiveness
and jealousy.
Here in your shadow I quake
Knowing your leaves drown out the sun
Keeping my blossoms from blooming
Unable to praise the tangible light.
Your branches burden mine
Yet in no way do I complain
Getting nourishment, water, and light
Only when you're stricken with mercy
Allowing minute speckles of light to seep through
Towering over me, a strong young sapling
While I am frail and weak
As if winter has come in summer's heat
Claiming my soul swiftly
My love for you, though painfully unhealthy
Remains ever strong
As I hold on each day praying
You'll finally free the sun.

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

My heart is torn to pieces
Shambles within
Constantly hurting
The hole continues to grow
Uncontrollably
Unrepairable
Not from lack of will or ability, but
From absence of a mender.

Seasons of love have taken their toll.
This lover and that one
Insensitive down to their soul
Aggressively knocking
For a time, possessing the key

Without question, the door is opened
Praying this one has the recipe
  To heal the scars within.
Giving love unconditional
 Not anticipating a tragic end
Consistently taken for granted
 No love received in return.

Exposing oneself to the elements of infatuation,
Lust, pain, deceit and lies.
 Scars and gashes, penetrate
 Deeply embedded
 After every "love's" depart
 Repeatedly bandaged and sutured
Endless pain

 How can it be protected
 This lonely heart?
 The only solution may be to close it
 Protect it and guard it
 Change the locks, discard the spare keys
 Allow the scars to heal and the pain to end.
 Treat all those coldly
Who try and enter in.

My heart is torn to pieces
Shambles within
Constantly hurting
The hole continues to grow
Uncontrollably
Unrepairable
Not from lack of will or ability, but
From absence of a mender.
                                                                               

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

Waking up to you, is like waking up to Superman.

I marvel at the amazing things you do

You keep me in a state of wonder

From the way you hold me while I sleep

Your arms they bring me comfort

To the kisses you place on my forehead

After we pray each night

The things you say they melt my heart

Loving me natural and pure, like God made me

No added makeup, ingredients, powders and perfumes, just me


Waking up to you, is like waking up to Superman.

When I am feeling down, lost or ready to give up

You wrap your cape around me

Blocking every dagger, hurtful words and blows

Repairing the damage in my heart

Ever faithful, loving and true

Cheering me across the finish line

Carrying me the last mile

Never dulling my shine, or dimming my light

Allowing me to excel and succeed.


Waking up to you, is like waking up to Superman.

I wish every girl could feel this too

Have a knight in shining armor, a hero, a beau

Know this feeling I have of utter adornment

Be a believer in a love that's true

The kind in books, movies and fairy tales

Each time I realize that you are mine

I pinch myself to be sure it's true

That God could love me so much, so hard

He's send me something as amazing as you

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

A swift blow is sent into my heart

 Every time I hear your frantic screams

A blow for each thud of his fist, 

Against your tender face.

When he drags you, mercilessly, by the hair

Or when he kicks you in the stomach

Knowing his child is growing there. 


A knife, it stabs me; my heart, it bleeds

When I see you run naked from your home

Red scars from the rope on your wrist, 

He used to tie you up and rape you with. 

A  stab for every wall, your head was used to dent. 

When I watch him beat you with a belt outside in public. 

His abusive words shackle you, 

Unable to break free. 


My heart, it seems to tear in two

Each time uniforms appear

Taking him but knowing, he'll be back again

It tears when I see other those shades that cover your eyes

When you pretend its all okay, 

His loving you this way is fine.


I die because I know your life,

My mother lived it too

I die because I know your son, will grow to do the same

Your daughter will accept this as her fate

The way a man and wo-man

I die because your precious life 

Lies precariously in this man's hands

You could be my sister, my cousin, my daughter, my friend or 

Even me.


Now I watch your son play outside every day

Hoping you'll come round the corner

Knowing that white truck that took you away

Will never return again. 

Standing by, never reaching out or offering a word

That may have saved you or gave you strength

Instead I stayed away, now I owe this child.

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

This longing inside me,

An aching to know.

A desire to spend my every waking moment

Gazing into your eyes.

Sensing when you come near me

Your presence, like weight upon me.

This craving I have

To taste your sweet and tender lips

Or feel your arms around me

The hunger to know you care for me.

An everlasting thirst for your touch, your heart, your love

Anything. 

Sometimes the urge to scream your name

Praying you will hear me

Where ever you are and run to me

Your beautiful princess.

A feeling of ecstacy whenever we make love

No need for drugs or other things

I receive addicting pleasure from you

Tell me what is this I feel

Tis’ not infatuation

Most definitely not lust

Can it be. . . .

Is this love?

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

No one has the ability to conceive

Just how I feel inside

Why my heart is torn in two

Yet finds it hard to hate




Why my emotions are on edge

And no smile is on my face

How I sometimes get so sad

Tears flow like a river




No hug or kiss can comfort me

No opinion can change my mind

Why love to me is so conditional

Why being someone’s child is a curse packed with pain




How no amount of money

Could make my worries fade

How a desire to be me and establish myself

Has made my image to everyone change




Why my longing to be respected

Has brought out the bitch inside

Or caused my view of everyone

To completely rearrange




The solution to these problems

Is simple as can be

It’ll only take one little thing

To make you close to me

And that is, for you to. . . . .

UNDERSTAND

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤

Your voice is like the coolness of a summer breeze
Tingling against my skin
Sending currents of passion down my flesh
Finding rest between my thighs

Just to hear it takes my breath away
Makes me rush through naughty monologues
Proving points, Making an impression
Before I've reached your imposed restraints

Dialogue cool, yet hasty
You listening,  me struggling to find the words
My heart wants to say
Give words to the burning within

My flower pulsates at just the thought of you
I close my eyes and imagine
How it would feel for you to enter me
Catching the moans fighting to escape

Your mind enraptures me
Whispers to my wild child
Throw caution to the wind
But life, it brings me back to reality

Why are you here? 
What are we?
Why me? Why now?
Why in this lifetime?

I have no answer
No words
Only the assurance I feel
Being connected to you

Stay in my life
Friends forever?
Through life and loves
Until we meet again

Until our time comes
Until you may claim your prize
I will imprison you 
In my heart. 
Savor you with my soul
Lock you within my spirit 
And never let you go

🖤🖤TT🖤🖤